1. Your eyes. Because when you're happy or when you're talking to your friends, they're unnoticable. But when there's nothing to do, you look ready to kill, almost asking to be feared.
2. Those lips. Because whenever you speak it's always to diss someone.
3. Your friendliness. Because even though you are my friend now, behind my back or when I am gone... what are you?
4. That hair. Because if it isn't the anime-hair that I loved so much and couldn't draw, it's the damn hair that you cut so uglily.
5. That nonchalant attitude of yours. Because it makes it hard to hate you without liking you.
6. Your dumb smile. Because although it doesn't affect me like most people think it would, sometimes it's your best weapon to make me smile.
7. Your damn luck. It annoys me just how badly it can effect me and others.
8. The fact that I can't tell if you're lying or not. Because then I never know what to believe, I'll just believe in you... without letting you know.
9. Hearing how you talk and joke with others, and knowing in my head I shouldn't care. But in my heart it seems to kill me knowing how we talk to each other so differently than how you do to others.
10. That you can make me wait for a lifetime. Even if something was pointless I'll still wait and somehow or someway it'll happen. With you... it never will.
... There are so many more things that make me hate you, and it's because I like you that I hate you. There's never been a time before when my feelings were so raw and true, and it scares me to think about what I should do. So many more things that aren't there, that I can't say, cannot tell. Please tell me, tell me what I'm supposed to be doing to stop this feeling.
~June 5th 2010
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